I've got to get better....

I don't know why I am so bad at keeping up with this...I think about updating it all the time. I really want to, too. It'll be nice to have this to look back on.

So...since August, a bunch has happened. That's exactly the reason why updating this daily/weekly would be a smart choice...

Breakfast with friends <3

Many bath times...

Lots of fun with Andrea, and outside...

Halloween 2010 :) Aiden was a Bear/Tiger. His outfit was a tiger, very soft and warm, but the hat wasn't that warm so we had his bear hat on him, which wasn't fully covered by the costume, thus creating Bear/Tiger! He had a lot of fun, and got a good amount of candy for not going that far. He was too young and tired to go too far, but we saw a lot of awesome costumes around my father's neighborhood in Powell, which is where we went so they could be a part of his first trick or treat.

Christmas time 2010 was a blast :) Aiden was in a great mood on Christmas day. Here he is wearing a similar outfit to what I got his Christmas 2010 professional photos in, but he wasn't such a happy camper on picture day. haha!

Grandpa Greg [Aiden's grandpa, my step dad] and Aiden on his new rocking horse, that he LOVES :) It was very special to my step dad to give that to him. I am so glad that Aiden loves it so much. 

My grandpa, Ray, and Aiden. I love this photo. My grandpa has had a rough couple of years, battling cancer and dealing with chemo and radiation.. He's truly an inspiration, seeing him fight and not give up...and it's paid off so far. I'll never stop praying, though.

Cousin's Aiden and Andrew. Andrew is almost exactly 1 year older than Aiden, but he is so much taller! It's crazy :) Aiden isn't short by any means, either.

A modest, but most blessed, Christmas <3 Continually thanking Jesus for his sacrific

Aiden had a good time reading  and playing on his new toys with daddy. I'm so glad I was able to snap these photos, they are very sweet :)

Momma is learning how to use her camera, and trying to get better at taking good photos, too

Most drastically life changing since August is I began working Monday through Friday 8:00am-4:00pm or 5:00pm in September. Less time with Aiden, but more money for the family. It's been a hard transition. Even 6 months later I find myself struggling with the reality of being a full time working mom. I knew I was blessed to be living at my dad's, rent free, and be able to be part time...but nothing could have prepared me for the emotional change it would bring being in our own house. It's nice to not be in the house 24/7, and more importantly to actually like my job, but missing my son is not something I had to deal with on a daily basis until I went to work during the day. It's a constant battle. Not because I am missing any monumental things for Aiden, or because he has forgotten me-not even close. I just didn't realize what kind of mom I wanted to be, being young and unprepared for the blessing that Aiden is. It hit me quickly, and harshly, that my heart truly yearns to be a stay at home momma. Something I'm not sure I'll get to experience, a consequence of still being in college and financially unprepared for what being parents/adults brings you. My hope...newly founded actually....is to improve myself as a photographer and make a career out of capturing memories for those around me. This would allow me to have more flexible schedule, making it so I could be more involved in the things I want to be with Aiden...especially when he begins school, and when we have a second child.

A lot must change for us for me to feel "caught up" to where I feel like we should be as adults and parents. With the added pressure I feel with being younger, I'm cautious with each step I take. Sometimes my impatience takes over, and frustration sets in. We are very blessed, and I do my best to never forget that...and always Thank God for all He's done in our lives.